Happy (Not) Ending of the World. Now go Back to Work.

As stated above, the end of 21-12-2012 is approaching. So unless something major happens in the next few hours, we can safely assume that those doomsday thinkers that interpreted the ending of the Maya calender as an indication to the destruction to life or even the world as a bit of the candle. 
Plus I had one conclusion today, as of today I have run in to every single one of the people that were in my class the year Frankie died. And I'm good. :}

Even though I'm a fantasy writer I have always failed to understand peoples obsession with the end. I prefer to focus on the here and now. Even if that means I have a whole lot to still finish. Still working on planning everything for my story's ... never knew so many stories existed over there. I will seriously have to sit down in the new year and draw all of the world maps, that way when I place people at a certain location it isn't miraculously placed on the other end of the continent. Plus clothes, weapons, technology, housing, places and culture will all have to be documented. So I fear I'll have a whole lot that needs to be done before I can really write scenes again. What won't be stopping me from writing random things down, even if there is like a 6000 year gap between the one story and an other. Guess that really is half the fun. :)

Also my snooping about on the MagicTales Forum is really helping me with getting some tips and tricks I never even thought about using but who are most likely great tools to get everything done. And if I don't like them or they don't really help nothings lost.

My dream for the next year is to have at least one short story finished of this world.
Now all I have to do is figure out which of the hundred of stories I'll do. :}

So between these stories and my life as a whole I'll have one heck of a job to do.

I made it and I failed

In the end I was able to claim a winner bar at Nano, but I had to rebel to make it.
As in total I've written nearly 100k of words in November but not even 25k of that was in my story. So making it has left me with mixed feelings and a drive to do better next year. :}
Poorly as I am still getting tired really fast my writing speed is still not up to par with what I expect of myself. I swear if I develop chronic fatigue because of this stomach flu I had I'll be really peeved.
This also had as a result that I was unable to finish my manuscript for Luitingh / Magictales manuscriptwedstrijd.
I will keep a track on the site to see how my fellow writers that did make it to the deadline are doing.
This does mean I will have more time to spend on making my story, my world and all the nutcases that sojourn over there, do as i say. :D
I know I'll finish this story and all the other ones in the world, for crying out loud I finally understand why there is a petrified ship on top of that mountain. How can I not write it down. :)

new camera.

As an invest in my Holiday and my future work I've gotten a new digital camera. Still need to figure out wow everything works but hey There are still 24 hours before I have to leave.
Going to use this camera to get some exposure, making sharp images from my drawings to place them on sites. Short stops from my writing, I got some fun ideas.

getting my bearings straight.

for the past week or so I have bin seriously rethinking my life, my decisions and the things I just didn't do.
For most people it probably looked as if I wasn't doing anything at all, what just simply isn't true.
I'm just one of those people that goes on and on about something inside there head and doesn't utter a word or even the hint of an word till I have every angle figured out. But when I am done pondering I do have the tendency to take immediate action. What for the people in my direct surrounding after all these years shouldn't be a shock any more.
Like 7 years ago, I finally booked that trip to Los Angeles I wanted to take. I had bin planning the trip in my head for nearly 2 years, yet the time between informing the people around me and my plane leaving were on the spot of 3days and 12hours. My mother especially did not like me very much, yet even she had to agree that if there had bin more time she'd had seriously would have attempted to talk it out of my head. It was only because I'd already paid and no refunds where possible she'd decided to let me go. I thought it was a sign that she trusted me enough to let me make my own decisions, the truth was that less than a day after my plane left she went to Court and filled 'parental guidance' over me saying that my impulsive behavior was preventing me from getting the mental treatment I clearly needed.
So after coming back what was (and still is) the best trip of my life, nobody said anything to me, everybody said they were gonna wait till the pictures had gotten developed before they were gonna listen to my story's. The only person who even hinted that not everything was as it seemed was my sister, but she's a bitch so I paid her no heed. No after being back for nearly a month I found myself on the receiving end of an official letter stating that all physical and mental health decisions would be made by my mother, indefinitely or till she sees fit to hand over control. Since that day I have bin desperately trying to get control back over my life, but I cant do it bombastically for it will only proof her right. At first I just thought that I'd indulge my mother by visiting some psychiatric and doctors, trying to proof that I'm not nuts just very creative. After one year I was labelled schizophrenic (They say I hear voices, I say they are the story's I'm working on), oppositional rebellious syndrome(I don't like it when I get told what to do), bi-polar(wouldn't you be) and several other tags.
You can understand that since that day I have bin very weary of making life-altering decisions, as my mother can make a stop to pretty much anything.