Being just slightly perverted.

Either I have come to terms with the more dark convolutions of my brain or I just simply stopped fighting against them. over the past few weeks I have come to realize that my drawings, writings and even my overall thoughts all revolve around sex. On it's own not very bad, probably a lot better than the complete lack of thoughts in that directions I had near the end of my last relationship. But for crying out load, that's bin over a year ago and now suddenly my mind gets overrun by thoughts. I bet it has something to do with that story I wrote for nanowrimo there is ample amount of sex involved in that story.

About that story I fear I will really have to completely rewrite the first half. For some odd reason I have come to the conclusion that it will be a much better story if certain parts are seen through Waltz' eyes instead of Heathers. Which means that only by the grace of god will I successfully reach the editorial end date of May first, after that I will loose my code with which I can get a free copy. No Fair, I want my free copy. But I am not going to kill myself.

Oh and on yet another account I fear I do have contracted something as I have just had yet another week of shivers and rises. Unless this is still the same than I don't want to know what it really is.

Finished one now ready for the rest.

On My Long List of drawings that have planned on doing this year The nr.1 was a birthday card for my best friend, that has resulted in to a drawing featuring Megamind, a main character to a movie she is completely crazy about. I Mean she talks about this character so often that without ever seeing the movie myself I successfully wrote a explanatory text along with it that made it stay completely true to his persona in the film. I mean I am yet to even watch a trailer, that is how little I know of the story.

http://carpe-diem-et-noctem.deviantart.com/#/d38vpw8

To celebrate her birthday we went bowling yesterday, this was the second time I have ever gone bowling in my life and although I will never be good enough to make my living out of it I am (slightly boasting) pretty darn Good. I only lost the second round by two points but I firmly made a Hundred point in third. Although to be very honest the people I was with had all slight handicaps. one could only use his other arm because of an accident, the other got constantly distracted (perhaps because he's finally with the girl he was after) and I fear my friend lacks sense of direction; or she has a very good sense of directions as I have never seen such splendid gutter balls and near misses performed by a singular person.

On a secondary notice I finally do not feel like I had the unfortunate run in with a pack of bulls so I feel safe to say that my health is moving in the proper direction and (keeping fingers crossed) hopefully this year I'll skip the pneumonia.

Best wishes and good health.

The power of the pen

By my love for the written word my love for writing the words has steadily but undoubtedly grown into one of the greatest loves of my life. But as of this week my beloved pen be it fine-liner or fountain - will have to make room for a new pen that might very well possibly become the most important non-living friend I have into the world. By my own accord I have namely became the proud owner of a Bamboo Tablet Pen and Fun S. This little baby will not only help me improve my drawing skills that I have horribly neglected over the past 5+ years, It can even be used to write your notes directly into a computer-file. This means I no longer will have to write things down first and then type them out on the computer. I'm so happy I caught myself singing to myself. And I don't even like singing.

I can't wait to spent my days rotting away behind the computer creating the most beautifull lines ever written in human history. That is the power of the pen. All Praise the true power of the pen.

New Years resolutions.

This is going to be a first for me as I have never ever dared to plan ahead in life by making a do or don't list.

So lets get started with the ten things I want to accomplish:

1. Make over 100 drawings of OC's and have them somewhere they can be viewed by the general audience be it through Deviantart or any other art community.
2. Write over 100 Story's big or small and have them available for the general public be it through Deviantart or any other means
3. Finish editing my nanowrimo story
4. Finish my cover-art for my nanowrimo story
5. Get my free book print from www.CreateSpace.com
6. Release my nanowrimo Story to the general public either through CreateSpace or any other self-publishing provider.
7. Go out by myself and have a good time without feeling responsible for everyone else in my life, they don't even realize that I'm doing it.
8. Kiss a complete stranger. (I once read somewhere it's easier to keep yourself to your goals if you put at least one in there your allowed to fail in.)
9. Be open for a new relationship.
10. Go on a holiday alone and actually enjoy myself.

Then there are the things I wish to stop. So here are my top three peeves about myself:

1. Stop worrying about what others might think. I don't know where it went wrong but I was a much happier person when the opinion of others didn't stop me from doing things that feel right.
2. Talking myself down. (if this one needs explaining find help)
3. Fantasizing about things that will never happen. There are way to many good things right under my nose that could use my attention.

Let's just see how well I can keep myself up to this list.

Almost forgot the most important part of this post.

Happy New Year may you all have mucho fun.

pitter patter

One of my dear friends is going to become a mother. love

Merry Christmas

Christmas has come and past so fast that I did not even have time yet to really have it sink in. Right after I finished the flue that had bin looming around the corner jumped me and took me in a serious grip. Putting everything at a hold, I know my birthday has bin just because the text messages on my phone. Including one from my ex whom I have not spoken to in nearly a year, minus that small intermission in may when we were at the same convention. Odly you'd think me not responding to a single text since might have bin a clue to my interest in his being now would it? Oh well, enough other people did sent me messages that did light my day.

Poorly the flue also made me run behind nearly every plan that was in process. I did not even start with the Christmas decorations till the 21th and my card was sent by email this year because my pen hand was not to be trusted. Believe me, I had found myself so worn down by the flue that I wasn't even able to put my signature on my checks let stand write readable text on cards that are sent out. I did not entrust that job onto myself.

With all those starter trouble one would suspect that Christmas would be troubled as well but no, for once It went by without as much as a bad worth spoken. There wasn't even a short verbal encounter about the dishes, the food or the way the presents were going to be done. Neither on first Christmas day or on the second when we went out to dinner with my sister and her beau. Well they had a small altercation but for once we were not asked to take sides. guess me with the flue is a little more like able person than on any other given day.

Made it

stamp by; art-junki3.deviantart.com

Unbelievable but true, I've past the 50000 word count bar with even a day to spare so for the last day of nanowrimo I had my winner bar nicely shining under my name. Propelling me in the world of authors, as one of the prizes is having the possibility of selling your book through amazon.

Not that my story is even in the near facility of being able to be published yet. For starters I am yet to finish the final chapter and the first few chapters are a dumb mess. All in all I need a lot of pruning before this can be released on the masses, so thank god for deviantart where the rain of terror will be unleashed and poor passerby's will be forced into submission to give me feedback other than this word is supposed t

o be spelled differently.

That's not feedback that's pointing out my dyslexia.

So all be where for I promise...